Friday morning when my daughter went out to the barn to feed and turn
out for the day she found her horse Nate dead in his stall. Nate had been
suffering for a while with stringhalt, which was exacerbated by his condition
of shivers. Though he had improved a lot with the medication, he was
still having some difficulty walking. While she was doing everything she
could for him to make him comfortable and help him recover, he continued to
lose weight and wasn’t looking or feeling good in general. Even though
his death was heartbreaking, he left our world on his own terms in the best
possible way. His heart stopped beating and he left peacefully in his
sleep with his herd around him in the barn. On his last day Nate grazed
with his friends all day and came in at night to a hearty meal, his favorite
carrots and treats, and lots of hugs. That morning all his friends
stopped by his stall to sniff him and say their goodbyes.
What can we say about Nate’s life? Nate came to my daughter from
Holland as a four year old Dutch Warmblood and immediately touched all of our
hearts. He grew to 17.3 hh and was one of the sweetest, kindest, and gentlest
of souls. Everyone who knew him, whether human or animal, loved
Nate. He was always happy and willing to be your friend. Nate was
the most curious of our horses and would follow anyone around checking on what
they were doing, pulling pliers out of pockets or looking over your shoulder at
a job being done. Nate was the mischievous prankster around the barn and
if you were bending over to pick up or clean something, he'd give a little
nudge with his nose and tip you over. More than once while scrubbing out a
water trough, Nate has knocked one of us in head-first. And if you weren't
careful, he might even give you a wedgie!
He and my daughter traveled all over Europe through Germany, Holland,
Belgium, France, across the English Channel, into Wales, England, and
finally to Scotland. In Scotland they studied with the British Horse
Society for a while and had many great adventures. One day, my daughter was
leading a trail ride for the first time through the Scottish countryside on
Nate. While on a sunken road between two fields, Nate spied a herd of Highland
Cattle on one side. He'd never seen cows before, and eyed them
suspiciously, but continued along confidently. Then all at once they pushed up
to the fence and said "mooooooo," and, well, that was just too much.
He ran backwards until he hit the bank on the other side and fell over backwards
on top of my daughter. He rolled around on top of the bank until he was on his
feet, with her still in the saddle, and bolted, with the rest of the riders
watching in horror. She got to the end of the field where there were no cows
attacking him and they could jump down the bank back onto the road. He was
covered in mud and had tufts of grass sticking out his bridle, but he regained
his composure and was a perfect gentleman for the rest of the ride. That was
Nate. He tried his best. Sometimes the world just didn't cooperate with him...
At home he could be silly and always made us laugh or smile.
Nate decided more than once he wasn’t comfortable working in the indoor arena
and thought it was a good idea to jump out. Which he did twice through
the big doors on the end and once through the small man door on the side.
He was very athletic! He proved this by being able to dance around on his hind
legs whether someone was in the saddle or not. Nate wasn’t rebellious or
naughty on purpose, but when he got frightened he didn't run, he got airborne.
His spontaneous airs above ground were a sight to behold! My favorite
antic of his was one day when it snowed, and he somehow slipped down the
hill from the run-in and made his body into a horsey toboggan and slid right
under the fence. Not easy to do for a huge horse, but he managed it. My
daughter found him hanging out on her front lawn when she came home from work,
and found the skid marks under the unbroken fence. He was probably just as
confused, wondering how he had just teleported through the fence and how he
could get back to his friends. So, Nate had many adventures in his twenty years
that we saw. I’ve always wondered what he got up to that we didn’t see.
Then again, knowing Nate, maybe it's best we never saw most of that stuff...
Nate was also sometimes known affectionately around the barn as
"Tater," because he was a big sweet potato. His show name was
"Ex Animo," which is Latin, and translates roughly as "from the
heart."
As you will notice in the video below, he and my Dusty were
practically inseparable. Nate was her guy and they were hardly ever
apart. I hope there is a place for horses to be together again. We’d like
to think of Nate and Dusty grazing lush pastures, drinking out of crystal
streams, and being young and healthy again.
Goodbye
sweet boy, you are missed more than you know. Your leaving has left a big hole
in our hearts.
remember when our songs
where just like prayers.
like gospel hymns that you
called in the air.
come down come down sweet
reverence,
unto my simple house and
ring…
and ring.
ring like silver, ring
like gold
ring out those ghosts on
the Ohio
ring like clear day
wedding bells
were we the belly of the
beast or the sword that fell…we’ll never tell.
come to me clear and cold
on some sea
watch the world spinning
waves..like some machine
now I've been crazy
couldn’t you tell
i threw stones at the
stars, but the whole sky fell
now I’m covered up in
straw, belly up on the table
well and sang and drank,
and passed in the stable.
that tall grass grows high
and brown,
well i dragged you
straight in the muddy ground
and you sent me back to
where i roam
well i cursed and i cried,
but now i know…now i know
and i ran back to that
hollow again
the moon was just a sliver
back then
and i ached for my heart
like some tin man
when it came oh it beat
and it boiled and it rang..its ringing
ring like crazy, ring like
hell
turn me back into that
wild haired gale
ring like silver, ring
like gold
turn
these diamonds straight back into coal
Until
next time
Quotes for Today
There is something
about the sight of a fallen horse that strikes one's heart in such a way, even
for those who are not particularly a horse lover...the significance of
something so sacred, powerful, beautiful, intoxicating as the horse...when a
fallen horse is seen overcome by life's obstacles, fallen tears and a jolt to
the heart and soul can never be prevented...
- Stephanie M Thorn
- Stephanie M Thorn
Somewhere in time's
own space
There must be some sweet pastured place
Where creeks sing on and tall trees grow
Some paradise where horses go,
For by the love that guides my pen
I know great horses live again.
~Stanley Harrison
There must be some sweet pastured place
Where creeks sing on and tall trees grow
Some paradise where horses go,
For by the love that guides my pen
I know great horses live again.
~Stanley Harrison





